JACKSONVILLE, Fla. -- Sekina Bell is still coping with the loss of her son, Derek Williams, who was gunned down three weeks ago inside a Murray Hill home.
On Sunday, Bell attended a church service to spread her message of ending gun violence that's plagued her family for generations.
"Right now I feel OK," said Bell. "I don't know about later on, but right now my spirit is at ease."
Bell says she hasn't been crying lately. She says that is a sign that the healing process has begun.
"Nov. 7, at 5:20 a.m., I got that phone call and was told my son was murdered. I felt like God had let me down. All the year I had been praying, asking to keep my sons out of harms way."
Bell said the loss of her son makes her feel likes she's been through this same tragic situation before.
Bell said, "My grandfather was murdered when I was 2. Then at 12 my, father was murdered. Then at 28, my son's father was murdered."
"For a long time my prayers to God were 'Lord don't let anything happen to my sons,' because it seems like all the men that are in my life that are very significant in my life leave me."
It's generational family tragedies such as Bell's that are the reason behind organizations like Operation Save Our Sons. Pastor John Guns is working with fathers and their sons to end the culture of gun violence.
"When young men are equipped to make healthy decisions, when young men are equipped to manage conflict, when young men are equipped to choose their friends wisely, then that will translate to them living longer," said Guns.
Bell agrees. She says she knows protecting her sons is a tough job. She's now praying she doesn't lose the two sons she has left.
"His smile and his phone call, my son called me every single day. There's not a day my son didn't call me and after each conversation its always 'I love you Ma.'"